This month...I don't want to talk about this month.

Hello all,

Sorry, I know I haven't written much this month. That was because, there wasn't a lot that I wanted to write about. I guess you could say that I've been putting things aside and handling some heavy stuff going on in my family. I'm ready to write it out now, and to hopefully get back into a productive routine. We'll see.

I'm not going to go into a great amount of detail, but my Grandmother died in early May. She was ninety-one years old, but however old she was, I still was sad to see her go. Still, I know that she's in a better place. She had a dream a few nights before that the Lord came to take her away. I'm sure that's what happened. Still, it's hard for those left behind.

The day after Grandmom died, my Mom had to go to the hospital where she was diagnosed with a transient ischemic attack (in essence, a mini-stroke). She's okay and she got out a day later, but we were all very worried about her. Somehow we did manage to pull together as a family and plan Grandmom's burial, but it was rough.

Jesus really worked through me. I could have never done all that I did to help alone. I owe Him a great deal, for his sacrifice for me, of course, but currently I'm referring of all he did for me during the two weeks surrounding these events. It was a wonderful feeling to have him work within me. I've never felt anything like it. I felt so peaceful, and so in control. Usually when someone dies in my family, I'm depressed and disorganized and pretty much freaking out, so I know it wasn't me that was doing all of these things. Still, when it was all over it left me totally emotionally and physically drained. My body isn't designed to handle that kind of thing.

Anyway, long story short, I got through it, only to get sick with a terrible head cold that lasted a full week the week after things settled down (that was the week before this one). Anyway, I'm finally over that, and I'm now trying to get caught up on chores, etc. My husband was very supportive and didn't ask me to do much this week. We ate fast food alot so I wouldn't have to cook, and somehow I didn't give the cold to him, which is amazing. Still, I haven't exercised or read anything at all this month, and I was getting out of the routine I had a few months before anyway. I know I've gained at least five pounds over the past two months(probably more like ten) which I'm hoping to shed. Thankfully, I don't look that bad yet though and can still wear most of my favorite clothes. Now that things have settled down, I want to get back into exercising and taking care of my body as well as my mind.

I've done a little writing on "The Guildsmen," that steampunk story I have a sample of on this blog. It's coming along nicely, probably because usually when bad things do happen I somehow become more inspired to write. Still, I'd definitely take writer's block over everything bad that's happened this month any day. I might have another writing sample from it in the future. I kept the intro that I put on this blog, and I'm trying to keep that writing style as well. With a few minor changes, he first few chapters have passed the approval of one of my friends who is an avid fan of steampunk, so I feel confident that so far it's going well. Still, this week I also took a break from writing while I was recovering because I took long naps in the afternoon (I couldn't help it. I was really that sick.). So, anyway, wish me luck on getting back to writing.

Anyway, that was this month. Hopefully, June will go better. There are a lot of good friends of mine, including my Pastor that are going through things just as bad if not worse than I was, so please keep him along with anyone you know who is going through bad things in your prayers. I have no doubt prayer requests went a long way with me and my family.

I'll try to keep this blog up and keep you posted more often from now on. Thanks for reading. I would say "keep reading" or "keep writing" but I can't say that in good conscience since I need to take my own advice on that this month. Here's one that's more appropriate...take care.