Lemons, burning Life's house down...

Sorry I haven't posted in a long time. Things have gotten kind of crazy again. I guess the washer is to blame partly...

We had an incident around the house recently, involving the washer and dryer. The dryer has been broken for a very long time. The timer doesn't work, so it stays on the wrong heat setting and doesn't beep to tell me when the clothes are dry. This has caused many of our clothes to shrink, but I've been trying not to complain and to just deal with it. However, a few days ago, when the washing machine began to smoke, we came to the realization we needed a new washer and dryer, which meant putting it on the best buy credit card, and making us go into more debt.

I had a bit of an epiphany...I really need to get another job. If I'm thinking of having a child at some point in the near future, we need to pay off some debt. And, while I love my writing, it isn't paying the bills. Don't get me wrong, I will continue to write in my scant amount of free time, but I need to go back into graphic design, or become an administrative assistant. I need to use the skills I went to school to learn and bring another income into the house.

The problem is, there will always be small emergencies that will require money. Recently, I had a terrible pain in my abdomen and had to go to the hospital--600 dollars. We adopted a stray cat that wandered up and needed medical attention--300 dollars. We needed a new washer and dryer--1000 dollars. And, at any time, my old car (It's a 92 Chrysler Lebaron) could say "goodbye cruel world" and then that will be a few thousand for a "new" used car. The point is, if we don't have the money to cover small emergencies, having a child will be very hard on us.

I'm going back to work to cover my bills, some of the groceries, and to pay off my credit card. Then, my husband can work towards paying off debt much faster. A temp agency is trying to get me an interview with a graphic design company right now. If such an interview can be arranged, I think I might have a full time graphic design temp to hire job soon (I've been exposed to the program they use, and it isn't one of the usual ones like Photoshop or Illustrator, so I think I have a good chance).

Please, wish me luck and pray for me. I need it. It's hard to balance everything and going back to work full time or part time is going to be a big adjustment. I'm not sure how we're going to keep the house clean, how I'll be able to pursue my writing, or even how I'll be able to get used to staying us so early, but I am determined to do this. Somehow, things work out one way or another. When life gives you lemons, you create a machine that makes flaming lemons and burn life's house down!